jaesama:

linear art doodle. just playing with strokes and widths.

jaesama:

linear art doodle. just playing with strokes and widths.

 5BOYS. 4YEARS. 1DREAM.

rynnyrae:

bundere:

daughteroctober:

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honestly, this is so important though. at 18, i had been depressed for so long that i was afraid of what would happen if it were to get treatment. “if this part of me goes away, who am i? will i still be the same me?” i was legitimately afraid of getting help for myself. your depression may shape you, but it doesn’t define you.

i was afraid of what would happen if it were to get treatment. “if this part of me goes away, who am i? will i still be the same me?”

this is something i still struggle with through therapy..  in 2006 i was told i was depressed, and treated.  it wasn’t until 2010 or so that i was re-evaluated and diagnosed with anxiety disorder, which was fueling my depression.  once i found that out, i looked back on my life, even back to childhood, and so much made sense.  so many actions and feelings…  the anxiety has been with me since i was a little kid, and the depression most likely started after we moved in middle school. 

i’ve been living with these my entire life.  i’m seeing a therapist, i’m taking meds, but i’m still scared to fully let go of old habits and thinking.  that’s who i am.  who will i be without them?  that thinking is so damaging, yet i can’t seem to let it go completely..  it’s one of my baby steps: whittle it down whenever i can.  i am me.  my depression and anxiety are just flavor text..